Killing Me

No more drink for a month! No more gambling ever! I now have no online accounts left with anyone. Let's see how that goes.

One thing I have realised with the scub coming up today; spending time away from her really makes it harder to lose weight. I must underestimate how many calories we lose together!

Suckers Intl. Has Gone Public

The toilet perfume guy in Zanzibar declared "no spray, no lay". I can't quite put this into words right now, but I felt like a total idiot being in the same sphere as certain people last night.

Heh, I am a total idiot.

Disconnected

My phone has died and up until a second ago, my facebook was also down! My, how I panicked.

Protest the Hero went on AFTER, not BEFORE Strike Anywhere on Tuesday night. Which is not what was advertised. I have since heard that S.A. had gear issues, but still, how I hate that shitty band even more now.

Propagandhi were great as always, despite not smiling once. As always. They played "natural disasters", which meant Todd actually did some vocals! That was the highlight for me.

Help Me

Yet again I find that I haven't blogged for a while. Ah well, Bejewled ruins everything I guess. I recorded this list of songs recently from when I struggled through the Heanor 10k. I took my iPod and put it on a shuffle of top rated songs, and no word of a lie, this is what was played, in this order! Every single song was not only ace, but the lyrics seemed to speak out to me;

Above Them - For Those that Paved the Way (“We're tired but we're not giving in”)
NOFX - Eat the Meek (“Why must we stay, where we don't belong?”)
Strike Anywhere - I'm your Opposite Number (“We're still fighting each other, I'm your opposite number”)
Box Car Racer - Cat-like Thief (“The best thing yet to help you through and through”)
Passenger Action - The Flight Test (Instrumental, but inspiring all the same)
A Wilhelm Scream - Career Suicide (“Run, motherfucker, run!”)
Belvedere – Anaesthetic (“Time on my own...I'll ignore any reminder of my normal life”)
Idlewild - (The Night Will) Bring you Back to Life (“And you know that the night can bring you back to life”)
Intensity – Elecciones (A Mexican cover song about elections. It was the POWER that helped)
Only Crime - Eyes of the World (“and let me justify the time that I catch my breath”)
Blink 182 - Adam's Song (“I can't wait 'till I get home, to pass the time in my room alone”)
Box Car Racer - Letters to God (“I swear I'll take just one lifetime”... OK, so that was more reverse psychology)
Good Clean Fun - What Corporate Rock can't Say (“It never works to play their game, things always turn out the same”)
Propagandhi - Rock for Sustainable Capitalism (“If anyone out there understands, can I please see a show of hands? Just so I know I'm not insane”)
Intensity - Resist Control (“How much oppression can you take?... Resist control”)
Good Riddance - Darkest Days (“Running on adrenaline...looking for the end or a place I can finally come clean”)
Comeback Kid - The Blackstone (“The chilling sound is fitting in just right”)
The Ataris - Your Boyfriend Sucks (“and you're waiting there, it's tearing you apart”)
Stiff Little Fingers - Guitar & Drum (“I believe in the power of guitar & drum”... so true!)
Bush - Straight No Chaser (“Drink life as it comes, straight no chaser, life as it comes, straight no chaser, flying inside you, away from strangers...It's all in the way we know that we could have it all, some satellites of pain can always be ignored.” Not the most energetic song right at the finish, but fuck me, such a fucking great song.)

OK, so maybe a few were a little abstract, but I'll be damned if they didn't help me through every metre! Plus the Relentless, heh. Here's to the next one! Maybe I'll get round to writing again soon.

New Architects

So about 20 minutes ago, as a student of International Relations & Third World Development & Global Development, I was sat in a lecture listening to how Sodium Sulphate effects different kinds of rock.

Is Derby shit? Discuss.

Prognosis: Fuck You

Hmmm. It appears my facebook account has been deleted due to terms of use violation. I love it how someone has reported me for something and not even had the balls to email me about it. I'm not sure what has happened, but I know this for sure... I'm not sure I need it!

Oh yes, Frank Turner was wank last night. Well, he wasn't wank, he played quite well, I just didn't enjoy it very much. He played Rock City in Nottingham, and people were loving it. It was absolutely packed. It just didn't feel right. Plus, his playing up to the crowd annoyed me. I don't want the last song to go on for 10 minutes whilst he gets a round of applause for everyone, including his American tour manager. I won't be bothering again!

Fucking Rich Fuck The Poor

Well, it seems like ever since I have moved to Derby, an invisible force has been trying to get me back into gambling. There are 3 pieces of evidence for this;

1) Skybet, the only betting firm I didn't delete my account with, actually called me to ask why I wasn't betting anymore! She was friendly enough, it wasn't a demand or anything, but I still had to justify myself! Hmmm. Anyway, they asked if I'd had my free fiver, so I said no and put it on England to beat Ukraine. D'oh! That'll ensure I'll never get back into it! Cheers Rio.

2) Betfred are taking on cashiers. I applied for the position after much thought. I do want a job, but I don't want to work as a flyer guy. At one point, it seemed like that's all there is in Derby. I actually went to apply at Bar Lisi, but the sign had already been taken down! So, off to Betfred I marched. Fucking hell. A week later and I haven't heard anything, so maybe I won't have to suffer some of their odourous clientel. But some people have doubted my ability to handle it, I wish I could prove them wrong.

3) This is super bizzare. A guy approached me when I was on my way to pick Nat up from the train station. He seemed decent enough, a little younger than me, non-stinky. Basically he wanted me to come into the bookies and give £20 over for him so he could pay his "winning bet". He gets £30 back, I get my £20. It seemed fine at the time. But on this occasion, I had genuine reasons; I wanted to be on time for Nat and I told him I was trying to stay away. He wouldn't accept this, so I had to say it a little louder and he got it. Do I look so gullible? I told him to try someone else, he couldn't seem to fathom this. So maybe I was his easy target.

So, whatever is going on, I survive for now! There are shit loads of betting shops though...

Allies

Apparantley, homosexuality is a "disease". This was not spoken by a homophobe. Dear oh dear.

Fucked

Ok, well, I just attended the 3rd running meet since joining the society. The first one was 4 miles/6.5km, which was the furthest I'd ever ran. That was followed the next morning by the football trials. So, yeah. I couldn't walk over that weekend.

Anyway, tonight was 10km. I'm actually doing OK, save for a major headache. Note to myself: fucking keep it up! I ate a full tub of chocolate Swedish Glace today for a start...

Speak To Our Empty Pockets

So I've now moved into Derby Uni, and whilst it's not yet blown away the previous version of me, I am looking forward to getting stuck in!

I actually thought I would be gagging for a job, and I still am financially, but I actually don't know if I'll have the time! Well, if the rest of the year is as work-free as the first 2 weeks, I'll be OK, but I somehow doubt it. I forced myself to hand in a CV today at a bar I liked (there aren't many), but they had taken the sign down for staff hire. So we'll see.

I'm really happy with my flatmates, I haven't been placed with 18 year old "party animal" wankers, so it's cool. Derby itself seems to have plenty of unsavouy characters, including one kid who called me a "Guinness drinking wanker" outside the halls the other night. For no reason. Nevermind!

Finally, I always thought I didn't really have an accent, but since moving here, I have said a couple of things that sounded to me like pure Derby speak. However, it's quite possible it's rubbing off on me already!

Ah yes, as for the last post, I was depressed. Here's to changing it!