New Beginnings Day 6

Today I was rained on and it was all my fault.

New Beginnings Day 5

Life isn't where I wanted it to be, nowhere near. But finally, it's heading to where I want it to. A month and a half to go. I've waited a lifetime for this. Will not bollocks it up.

New Beginnings Day 2

Must keep going. It is close. I've made my parents cry far, far, far too much.

New Beginnings Day 1

I've survived today. This could turn out to be the most important day of my life.

Biting Dogs Don't Chew

It's been a few days and I've fallen into old habits - this is precisely why I must carry on. It seems like I expect time to stop whilst I get myself sorted out.

Nope. I can't wait any longer.

Havasu

Well - I didn't get the job. Whilst all I can do right now is feel sad, I'm sure in time that the whole experience can be turned into a positive.

Viola Beach

Life's a race. It's an obstacle course. 
Hide, but you'll never have a choice when you go. 
They would have noticed you if they had known, but you're fucked.

They'll only love you when you're gone, 
or barely hanging on to all your organs and dignity 
while you're rotting in hospitals.
Don't believe it? 
It's not your fault. 
You're just worthless. 
You're one in a million. 

Another day, no dollars

I think it's a real sign of how bad things have been for such a long time when I quietly celebrate days like today, when absolutely nothing happened whatsoever. Onwards!

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Yesterday was the day it all ends. February 7th, 2016. I have to make it count. With all that I've done, yesterday was the absolute limit. I live to fight on. I live to make days like that not only a distant memory but totally incomprehensible to myself and others. It is time to keep promises to myself, and others.

I am sorry for what I have done. I can't be sorry any more. I need no more reasons to be.

Tallies Yarn

The internet was playing up the other day and I've been off with my blogging. This entry was about my day at work in which I discovered that my colleague grew up in Talysarn. Not only does that make the world feel temporarily small to me, but it also reminds me of how many years have passed and all the shit I've managed to fill them with. I remember how I felt (kind of) growing up in those mountains.

The best thing about the conversation, aside from the memories, is the instant recollection of those feelings of adventure, innocence and wonderment at life. I can still have those. I can evolve.

I hope to return.